desde a separação, por força de circunstancias, não têm sido muitos os dias sem eles agarrados a mim. e eu gosto, e eu queixo-me: não tenho tempo, nem espaço para fazer nada, nem tempo, nem espaço para refazer o que é preciso ser refeito depois de um projecto de vida ter desmoronado. estou tão habituada a estas duas vidas mexidas sempre no barulho de fundo que estar sozinha já não
Som de Birds - Purple Ferninand
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since the separation, by force of circumstances, there haven't been many days without them clinging to me. and i like it, and i complain it: i don't have time or space to do nothing, neither time nor space to redo what it needs to be redone after a life project have collapsed. i'm so used to these two lives always in background noise that to be alone is no longer the comfort that one day it was. and so the prospect of being one weekend with them kilometers away, was painful. but it was only the prospect, because in reality was an awakening that i needed this time. we're not a worse mother because we need this time for us. i already know the theory that we first have to take care of our welfare before taking care of the welfare of others, especially children. that's the theory. in the bustle of everyday life it is easy to forget that. it's easy to forget what we really need. putting theory into practice was a wake for my needs. and having friends also far i had a weekend without plans, without having time to be anywhere, without appointments except with myself. cooking with time and calm to the sound of music i like without interruption, without being requested, read books in silence, long showers, movies (ahhh the wonder of watching a movie from beginning to end without interruption) and take my time to awaken. i organized almost every corner of the house. and now i can reason better, plan better and be well prepared. it is essential to run more efficiently. i also discovered i'm in denial about their growth, as the youngest cabinet was full of four years linen (hell will 6 in two months). 2 huge bags of clothes to donate. they grow. and grow faster than we think. soon i will have this "alone" time more often. they will follow their lives .. and I have to remember that I have to continue to build mine.
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Sound by Birds - Purple Ferninand
Olá. Também sou recém-divorciada e tenho um filhote. Descobri o blogue há pouco tempo e identifico-me muito com alguns dos seus posts. Também comecei a escrever para dar sentido ao que tenho vivido e estou a viver. Obrigada pela partilha. É bom perceber que é possível seguir em frente depois do fim de uma vida a dois.
ResponderEliminarOlá. Tão bom ter retorno. Partilhar é importante. Sabemos assim que realmente nunca se está sozinha. É possível sim seguir em frente. Construir e reconstruir a nossa vida as vezes que forem necessárias. Beijinho.
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